Don't Chase Paper, Chase Dreams

fauntleroy: this is more true than the person who made it...

Mon, 04 Mar 2013 00:25:07 -0500

this is more true than the person who made it probably even understands..

the situation is a little different but this is close enough i guess lol..

Provoking Thoughts

Thu, 10 May 2012 18:33:11 -0400

An excerpt from the book “The Left Hand of Darkness” by Ursula Leguin

“The unknown, the unproven, the unforetold, that is what life is based on. Ignorance is the ground of thought. Unproof is the ground of action. If it were proven that there is no God there would be no religion. No Catholics, no Buddhists, no Muslims, no Jews, nothing. But also if it were proven that there is a God, there would be no religion…what is known? What is sure, predictable, inevitable-the only certain thing you know concerning your future, and mine?”

“That we shall die.”

”Yes. There’s really only one question that can be answered and we already know the answer….the only thing that makes life possible is permanent, intolerable uncertainty: not knowing what comes next.”

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she..."

Mon, 30 Apr 2012 14:45:11 -0400

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

- Bob Marley

"Seriously, if you always put limits on what you can do, physical or anything else, it’ll spread over..."

Thu, 12 Apr 2012 12:48:15 -0400

“Seriously, if you always put limits on what you can do, physical or anything else, it’ll spread over into the rest of your life. It’ll spread into your work, into your morality, into your entire being. There are no limits. There are plateaus, but you must not stay there, you must go beyond them. If it kills you, it kills you. A man must constantly exceed his level.”

- Bruce Lee

"Work as hard as you can. If you aren’t working as hard as you can, someone else is out there working..."

Tue, 13 Mar 2012 18:25:24 -0400

“Work as hard as you can. If you aren’t working as hard as you can, someone else is out there working as hard as they can. Those people who are working harder than you deserve opportunities more than you do, so stop making excuses for why you aren’t working hard and just work hard. When you feel like you’re working as hard as you can possibly work, work a little harder and you are probably getting close to how hard you actually have to work. Take more classes. Meet more people. Challenge yourself. Don’t expect anyone to hand anything to you. If you aren’t exhausted all the time, you probably aren’t working hard enough.”

New painting from last night based on listening to this Mansions...

Sun, 12 Feb 2012 17:19:58 -0500

New painting from last night based on listening to this Mansions On the Moon song… http://youtu.be/jH60HX83KE4

So here it is, flat out and simple…Which do you trust your heart...

Tue, 17 Jan 2012 15:11:00 -0500

So here it is, flat out and simple…Which do you trust your heart or your head? See your heart will lead you where you want to be, but your head will lead you where you ought to be. But which will lead you where you’re meant to be? See I followed my heart and it led me where I am, but my head is continuously telling me that I’m not where I should be by reminding me of the pain I go through just being where I am.

But I ask myself, what if this is meant? Although it’s hard, although it hurts, although it feels at times that it may not be fair, what if this is truly meant? What if I wait this out, stick with it through all the pain and hard work and it all pays off? What if I can change her life and in return she changes mine?

But then again, what if I wait this out, stick with it through all the pain and hard work and it falls to pieces? Should I care more about me, or about her? Who should I love more? Am I willing to hurt her now and save myself later, or put myself on the line and save her?

In the end I guess it all comes down to what kind of person you are. Am I a thinker, or am I a feeler? Do I plan ahead or do I follow my whims? Do I use logic or do I use compassion? Do I give condemnations or chances, or even more. Which does she make me want to be?

"When you’re with someone, make sure not only that YOU are sincere, but THEY are sincere and truly..."

Sat, 07 Jan 2012 02:50:00 -0500

“When you’re with someone, make sure not only that YOU are sincere, but THEY are sincere and truly care about you in return.”

- Papang

Here’s a super simple song I wrote and composed over a...

Fri, 16 Dec 2011 18:05:00 -0500

Here’s a super simple song I wrote and composed over a year ago about fading love/love lost…Came up with the melody and chords in like 30 minutes on the guitar and the lyrics basically wrote themselves to the mood of the guitar in like an hour. Feel free to take a listen! Had some fun and created a little cover art for it too.

Basically I wrote the song with the mindset of how sometimes not all the relationships you experience in your life are about the happy endings, but more about the stories instead.

Can’t Take That Away - Ryan Jay (original song)

Lyrics:

Here I’m lying

we’re growing apart

I know that its dying

the feelings are fading oh so fast

And I wish there was something that I could say,

that would sway your opinion and make you stay

Cause I can’t go on living this way

Always knew that wanted something more

Why did you give up somethin oh so sure

All this time we spent together they can’t take,

Can’t take that away

I know what we’re feeling

is receding, proceeding to disappear

If it dies, just know that

I just hope that, you don’t, you don’t forget

Everything that we went through, all we shared

when I gave you my heart, when you once cared

Cause right now I feel so unprepared

Always knew that wanted something more

Why did you give up somethin oh so sure

All the time we spent together they can’t take,

Can’t take that away

I was listening to music in my headphones when I heard what I...

Fri, 11 Nov 2011 03:54:48 -0500

I was listening to music in my headphones when I heard what I thought was knocking on my door. Loud enough to hear through my headphones. As I peered towards the door I saw it halfway open. BUT I CLOSED MY DOOR MAN. I got up to see if it was my brother or dad cause they’re usually the only ones who come to my room. NOBODY WAS EVEN AWAKE. Everybody in the house was knocked out in their rooms. I’m not spooked, I just wanna know who opened my door yo! O.O

THOUGHTspill.01 - Polar Opposites of Life I’ve started...

Mon, 07 Nov 2011 15:01:00 -0500

THOUGHTspill.01 - Polar Opposites of Life

I’ve started occasionally doing this thing where I just sit and put on hip hop instrumentals and contemplate life and just start writing about things that cross my mind. I call them my freelance philosophy sessions. I find it helps clear my head and reset my brain sometimes. Here is something I wrote this weekend. I wrote it in notepad and made my Macbook speak it to me and put a BADBADNOTGOOD instrumental over the dialogue. It reminds me of the Tribe Called Quest Midnight Marauder voice. It’s not poetry, nor is it a song. It’s simply my thoughts spilled over a dope beat.

I found a short Comic that I drew on the back of an old opened...

Thu, 03 Nov 2011 14:42:01 -0400

I found a short Comic that I drew on the back of an old opened envelope. #lifeshizz

Been waiting to pickup this book for a while now seeing as...

Tue, 25 Oct 2011 01:38:24 -0400

Been waiting to pickup this book for a while now seeing as I’ve watched 500 Days of Summer like 20+ times. Only 10 pgs in but its a dope read thus far.

Genius…I love Halloween

Thu, 20 Oct 2011 14:15:04 -0400

Genius…I love Halloween

Photo

Thu, 20 Oct 2011 12:54:52 -0400

Things like this restore my faith in humanity

Thu, 20 Oct 2011 12:46:22 -0400

Things like this restore my faith in humanity

Quick sketch of who I feel like today…Sniffling like crazy...

Mon, 10 Oct 2011 19:51:16 -0400

Quick sketch of who I feel like today…Sniffling like crazy today! I love fall weather but I always get systematically sick around this time.

First Oktoberfest

Sat, 08 Oct 2011 01:47:47 -0400

First Oktoberfest

RIP Edgar Allan Poe

Fri, 07 Oct 2011 13:56:05 -0400

RIP Edgar Allan Poe

Blind Man

Thu, 06 Oct 2011 17:34:00 -0400

Today I witnessed something incredibly inspiring. It happened right as I stepped out from finishing my lunch at Del Taco. As I was walking towards my car to head out I spotted a guy with dirty white shoes, black shorts, a dirty white Boston Paul Pierce jersey and a frazzled ponytail. His look alone wasn’t what caught my eye though, it was the long white cane extending from his right hand. He was tapping it left to right, left to right and he was straying away from the white lines of the crosswalk and heading towards the stopped cars at the light. I thought maybe this was a joke or something and he was gonna bump into the cars on purpose like an episode I had seen of Jackass where a fake blind guy crosses the street. Yes he walked into the cars but he successfully navigated around them like it was nothing, got onto the sidewalk and carried on like nothing. I dont know why but it just intrigued me that people like that actually exist and live their life. I had always wondered if the annoying loud beeps the crosswalk makes ever gets put to practical use. But this intersection didn’t even have the beep noise and the guy crossed the street like a G. All it was was a genuinely blind man crossing the street but it put a smile on my face. I know its gonna sound extremely cliche or corny but it just reminded me to live everyday to the fullest. Here was a man with a handicap being blind but that didn’t stop him from carrying on with his life. I know some people who like to exploit little things like that to make others feel sympathy for them and it sickens me because there are people out there living in conditions far more terrible then the bad situations you think you’re in. It just reminded me not to take things for granted and just be happy with the cards your dealt in the game of life. That guy had no eyes but he was making the most of it. It would kill me as an artist to never be able to see again, mostly because everything I love about my life is visual. Just reminded me that if God or whoever resides upstairs has given me gifts as an artist or anything else, best believe I’m gonna put those talents to use and not squander or waste them because there are people out there who don’t even has those opportunities available to them. Thus concluding my corny blog post. Lol. Enjoy life people, and if you’ve got talents, don’t let them go to waste!